I went to church today. I was not struck by lightening, fire and brimstone didn't rain down from heaven, nothing burst into flames and the sun was out when I left. I did have some strange emotions though. I am not sure why, maybe I felt bad for not going sooner - maybe I felt relieved that I finally took the step, maybe I was unsure what I was doing there but most of all I am not really sure I felt the need to go in the first place.
I am not quite myself lately. I need something different in my life - I have been consumed with certain paths that, for some reason, I just can't seem to make it down. Kinda like the hallway in Poltergeist. No matter how fast I run down the hall the door at the end gets farther and farther away. Maybe I have been trying to run down the wrong path.
I think that the real reason I went to church is because I have been having feelings I don't think are normal. Perhaps I believe that in going to church the sky would open up and send down an angel that is going to tell me exactly what to do.
I can't help but feel like I am losing all my battles - the FUNK so to speak - I just can't seem to get out of it and who knows, maybe this will help. It can't hurt, besides after the services there is a luncheon every week - can't be all that bad.
Now - guess what I get to do - organize paperwork so I can take my taxes in this week. Don't you just wish you could be here doing yours as well - I know you do - you are jealous aren't you?
Ta Ta for now
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