Revelation or Escape?

I went to church today. I was not struck by lightening, fire and brimstone didn't rain down from heaven, nothing burst into flames and the sun was out when I left. I did have some strange emotions though. I am not sure why, maybe I felt bad for not going sooner - maybe I felt relieved that I finally took the step, maybe I was unsure what I was doing there but most of all I am not really sure I felt the need to go in the first place.

I am not quite myself lately. I need something different in my life - I have been consumed with certain paths that, for some reason, I just can't seem to make it down. Kinda like the hallway in Poltergeist. No matter how fast I run down the hall the door at the end gets farther and farther away. Maybe I have been trying to run down the wrong path.

I think that the real reason I went to church is because I have been having feelings I don't think are normal. Perhaps I believe that in going to church the sky would open up and send down an angel that is going to tell me exactly what to do.

I can't help but feel like I am losing all my battles - the FUNK so to speak - I just can't seem to get out of it and who knows, maybe this will help. It can't hurt, besides after the services there is a luncheon every week - can't be all that bad.

Now - guess what I get to do - organize paperwork so I can take my taxes in this week. Don't you just wish you could be here doing yours as well - I know you do - you are jealous aren't you?

Ta Ta for now

WOW! Stereopodgacism at its Best!

To find out what that means click here http://www.youtube.com/user/boeingtim#p/u/7/dzVy0W1OAfQ I had absolutely zero motivation today.

Seriously, All I did today is shovel my small drive and sidewalk, make breakfast (twice), make a steak and cheeze sandwich about 5, fed my dogs and watched TV - all day - I feel like I totally wasted the day away.

I had weird thoughts though. I watched a few episodes of Psychic Kids and Haunted History and Ghost Sightings shows. I had this idea, for a split second - or 20, that if I concentrated hard enough, I could make something on my coffee table move with my mind. I failed. But just so you know I am not a quitter, I will keep trying.

I am reading the book, Psychology for dummies (or idiots) or something, I just finished the section on Freud's' 5 stages of personality development or psycho-sexuality. Quite interesting - it definitely opened my eyes. For example, I now know that quite a few of the men I have been around in my life were definitely forced to quit breastfeeding earlier than they had hoped and it has made a huge dent in the personality progress.

My daughter graduated from Cosmetology School yesterday. She is SOOO Happy to be out of there and she can't wait to get a chance to work in a real salon. I am so proud of her.

Well i have to get back to my recliner and heating pad - I am missing my 25th viewing of Iron Man - sick of the movie but boy that Robert Downy Junior is so hot!

Ta Ta for now

Happy New Year!

It has been awhile - Hello Again,
There is must to share - First, I was laid off again December 17, I am having serious house issues and money issues and bills just suck!

I need to get out of the Funk that I have fallen into - I need to focus on something - I need to clean out and downsize - it is time to get rid of stuff. You never know when I may just have to pack up and impose on someone else - Gee that is a really hard thought. I have been in that position once before - well twice but one was a want - the last was a need.

I hate borrowing, sponging whatever you call it - asking - for help. Always have always will.

I need to find something to do work wise - something to make money - everyone tells me to put my craft skills to work. I guess that may be the ticket. But how lucrative is that? Something I guess is better than nothing.

Till later.....